4 months - 4 kilos

At 4 months and 1 week, look who weights 9 pounds (4100g)!!!

Look how he's grown!

I really need to tell you about all he can do and does .. but for now I'll share a few sweet sleepy moments.

Papa is restoring an old playpen so Finn has a place to sleep and play downstairs. It's not done, but that doesn't mean we're waiting ..

And momma is not against hiring helpers if it means the pacifier stays in just a few more minutes so she can clean, cook, shower, sew ...

Finn loves visits with his godmother Sylvia and her mom "Auntie Linda" - look - they even dress as twins sometimes. We've been to Schellebelle several times while Sylvia is laid up after a knee surgery. But this lovely picture with Linda was taken at our house.

( published 5 July 2013 )

The Significance ... of 3

Finn is three months old today!

3

THREE

I can't help thinking about the significance of this number

Finn was 3 months early

and now he's already 3 months old

my how time flies

we are a family of 3

how we have dreamed of this moment for so long

but most of all ... I think of his three.

he and his brothers are three

Lars, Thor and Finn

three is also how many times he urped while momma was taking photos

and the number of times he's managed to suck his thumb

there are so many more threes in our lives but these came to mind first

three is also supposed to be the number of hours between Finn's feedings ...
haha, he's confused and thinks it should be two
or sometimes just one ...

I will never look at a 3 in quite the same way again

and I leave you with more pictures of Finn 
on the day he turned 3 months old, 
just click here, and scroll to the right

( published 29 May 2013 )

TODAY

Today was Finn's due date.
Today is Finn's due date.  

40 weeks gestation, for most people this means 40 weeks of pregnancy.

But Finn is here. He has been here.

For  nearly 12 weeks ... 

It's hard to imagine what our lives would have been like if he'd come later.
If he had come now.

We know this little man. 

He is a part of us. 

We have been by his side for 96 days.
And almost as many nights.

He is developing the sweetest personality.

He has a cheeky character that make us giggle.

He is wiggly.

And very smiley.

He listens. He loves to listen when we're talking.

And he would sooo like to be able to get his thumb in his mouth.

He watches his mobile and follows it as it slowly turns.

He makes distinct noises for specific things.

"gleh" when he's done eating 

"mah" when he wants to eat

He can "kick" himself into position to tell me he wants to eat .. very useful when I'm watching the clock and he's listening to his belly.

There is so much more .. so much that's it's hard to capture and remember every moment.
But we're doing our best.

He has already grown leaps and bounds.

He has overcome so much.

I am one lucky momma.

Who can't wait to watch this sweet little babe grow into a young man. 

But not too soon. 

First we'll just enjoy the "extra time" we got with him.

Because I'm one lucky momma.

Who is so very much in love with this little man.

Thanks to Esther, Freddy, Lise & Hanne for the so very cute top
... it is hard to believe he's growing into "real" clothes already!

*****

So how much has he grown?
Well coincidentally yesterday was his first appointment with his children's doctor.



weight
2820 grams / 6 lbs, 3-1/2 oz
a gain of 1515 grams / 3 lbs, 5-1/2 oz since birth

length
47,2 cm / 18.58 in
he has grown 7,7 cm / 3 in since birth



head circumference
35,5 cm / 14 in
an expansion of 8,3 cm / 3-1/4 in since birth

On Thursday, 23 May, Finn will be 12 weeks old.

to the post office

Finn and I went on our first stroller outing to the post office  

where found this beautiful quilt waiting for us.

 

It's from my friend Lisa.
Remember, the postman has come bearing gifts from her before.

The night it arrived, Finn took a short nap propped against my knees.

I love to watch his expressions.

It is the perfect size for our little guy and so snugly soft. 

Thank you Lisa, I can't tell you how much
the gift of your friendship means to me.

 ( published 22 May 2013 )

my little gentle man

Finn received the most adorable outfit 

from our dear friends, Jim & Siggy.

Now anybody can have a tshirt that says 

"mommy loves me" or "daddy's boy"

... but this one fits Finn to a T

Of course this picture shows off the outfit best.

 

 But you're more likely to get a pic of him being

a tad more silly

 

or a lot more cheeky, can you see the mischief in those eyes?

Of course if you knew Jim, you'd say he sprinkled cheeky powder on the outfit ... let's hope we have many more visits to and from Jim and Siggy. There's so much Finn can learn from them.

But of course he's the sweetest when he sleeps

all snuggled up with a bitty blue bear from Onkel Rolf.

 

One of Axel's oldest friends (they met around the age of ten), Onkel Rolf, came spontaneously (from Münich) for Finn's Christening and what a big help he was. There wasn't a task that he didn't tackle. He was momma's secret little weapon as he swept through the entire house tidying here, sweeping up there. There wasn't a corner that he missed. And all the while being the sweetest gentleman there ever was. There's a reason he and papa are still friends. And his momma hopes little Finn's follows very closely in Onkel Rolf's steps.

I nearly forgot to post this picture of Finn with Rolf .. isn't it lovely.
The mutual admiration is already visible.

These photos were all taken on Papa's birthday, the day after Finn's Christening. 

We were too pooped for much but luckily there was lots of cake left over!

Happy Happy Birthday Papa 

from your litte boy and his bitty bear.

Love you tons!

xox

( published 17 May 2013 )

Welcome Home Finn!

2 May 2013

Homeward Bound

It's Thursday morning, the 2nd of May and I'm feeling anxious and annoyed that we are still in the hospital. We are soooo close. Finn is doing sooo well, but in order to be discharged he needs to weigh 2300 grams / 5 lbs, 1 oz. I can't remember now what he weighed yesterday but I have it written down somewhere. But we were close .. really close.

I'm up, showered, dressed and half running the 50m to the NICU. Finn must weight enough today .. his weight gain over the last few days has been good and steady. Plus, I need out of here. I haven't been sleeping as well and it's just time to get our little family home, together, all under one roof.

When I go into wake him for his bath and first feeding, this is how I find him. Sleeping like a little angel. Not surprising that his hands are around his face. His chubby little hands, his chubby little face.

*** this picture makes me smile and wonder at the boy Finn has become ... he looks so much like this photo, he is learning to blow kisses and put's his big chubby hand up to his face, just . like . this. ***

I gently pull back his covers so he can wake slowly while I get his bath things together. He loves to sleep but part of the bathing / first diaper routine in the morning is to weigh him before the doctor does rounds. I've feeling positive and nervously excited. I address him, chatting as we go. Pick him up and lay him gently on the scale.

2285 grams / 5 lbs, 1/2 oz. 

My heart sinks and I am fighting back tears. We are 15 grams short. NO!!! I really don't think I can bear another day, but I have heard that today's rounds doctor is one of the more stickler ones ... I am fighting back tears but go about bathing, changing and dressing my sweet boy and wait for the doctor. I see her start to enter the NICU and a nurse rushes up to her. They chat quickly but I know they are discussing Finn. The doctor comes to talk to me before I've finished up with Finn.

I know she can see my disappointment, surely she can hear it in my voice. That I'm about to cry. That I'm about to crack. She checks Finn over, confirms his weight and says, hey, let's not quibble about 15 grams. ok ...

You can go home today. 

My heart stopped for a moment I am sure. 

We can go home!

We . can . go . home ...

But first we need to do a bunch of things and tests.

And I need to call Axel. Oh my gosh and empty my room. 

And get Finn ready.

• First one last ultrasound of his brain - all clear!
• Another echo of his heart (to track the bridge in his arteries .. it's *almost* closed)
• He needs his first round of vaccinations .. poor kid, not really what you want on the day you want to go home.
• His eyes are dilated and checked one . more . time (I think the 3rd, the have been fine every time. Finn never received oxygen so that helped.)
• I meet his primary children's doctor for the first time and do my best to concentrate.
• Axel needs to go to the University Hospital to pick up a monitor and attend a class on how to use it. 

Oh and I need to pack my room.

And get his clothes ready. 

His hat is finished but not his little pants I was still knitting.

We are finally there and it is time to go home.

Home with Finn.

All three of us together.

Before we can finish grabbing the last things, Finn is fast asleep.

Oblivious to the hustle and bustle.
Oblivious to the excitement.

Just trusting that momma and papa got this!

Once home, it's all about finding a new routine. I must say, Finn was not himself. His surroundings were so different. Noisier, more exhausting. Different. And he was exhausted from that last day. If I had known what I know now I would have done everything and then given him a day to recover.

Yeh, ha. Who am I kidding ... I wouldn't have.

Because it was time to go home.

And enjoy this ...



Finn all tucked up in his bed at home.

Sleeping sweetly.
Sleeping soundly.

For now.

Until his monitor started doing false alarms and waking us all from the deepest sleeps. That d@mn monitor ended up throwing us all off our rhythm and things were never quite the same again, But more about that later.

For now our boy is home.

Sleeping sweetly in his bed.

And when the baby sleeps, momma sleeps.


{ Written retrospectively, 2 May 2014. One entire year after Finn came home from the hospital }